Friday, November 28, 2008

1127-painful

life can be painful sometime,especially alone.

sad about news in mumbai.
people crazy ,weak,desperate.blind.

i cried for my baby,drinking,smoking,empty
i hate i can not protect him,
i hate i let him stupid.

life for what?

i will be ok!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

1126-crying dolphin



sadly bear staring at me



holding my dolphin necklace on my heart,couldn't help my tears...

tomorrow go to see M,borrow the company stamp.
have years not see him.
trying return him all the jewellery,i don't need anyway.
but just can't find my ring,which was make me mad.

i must be the last dinosaur in the world,
jewellery,diamond,sapphire,opal,gold,no interested,
the dolphin necklace and opal necklace i not even wear them once,
just see the dolphin today,noticed they are originally two across together.
cried suddenly,and maybe,i need keep it.

a ring forgetter.k!

1126-Chemistry Test

Your Chemistry Test Results

Self-Confidence

As someone with high self-confidence, you feel quite comfortable interacting with other people. Indeed, you find the company of others very stimulating and enjoy meeting new people. Your relaxed demeanor in groups makes people around you comfortable too. Perhaps because you feel comfortable talking about yourself, others tend to enjoy being around you and perceive you as socially competent.

The confidence that helps you feel comfortable talking to people also spills into your own personal beliefs about yourself. Although you have several strengths, it’s likely that you also acknowledge and accept your weaknesses. But unlike some people, you take full responsibility for your actions—you rarely regret things you’ve done in the past and are not embarrassed easily.

Perhaps the defining feature that sets you apart from most people is the exceptionally high standards that you set for yourself. Your competence in social gatherings as well as at work should provide ample evidence for this. With these characteristics, it’s very likely that people come to you for advice and generally think of you as someone with leader-like qualities.

Family Orientation

As someone who is oriented to familial matters, you value the company of family-members and domestic life. If you have children already, you enjoy spending time with them very much and work hard to be a good parent. If you don’t have children, you very much desire having children in the future. And your preference for cooking and entertaining guests at home will likely ease the transition into parenthood.

You take pride in maintaining and cultivating a healthy family and work hard to achieve this. This natural tendency is easily illustrated by your preference for doing things around the house as opposed to going out to clubs and restaurants.

What really sets you apart from people that are low in family orientation is that you know how to manage your frustrations and work well on your own. This means that you are well-equipped to manage a family without letting all the work that is involved wear you down. However, as someone with strong family values, all the work that is involved in maintaining a tidy home and well-stocked kitchen might occasionally make it difficult for you to finish everything that you need to do.

Self-Control

The self-control personality dimension captures the way in which a person regulates and directs him or herself. Being low in self-control can be both good and bad. Occasionally people may be compelled to follow their intuitions and give in to their temptations, and your degree of self-control makes this likely to happen more often than not. This can be good in circumstances where being relaxed and open are important. However, in situations where it is necessary to be focused and careful, you might find that you do or say things that may be inappropriate.

As someone who exerts little control over your actions, you may find that you commit social blunders that might offend other people and get yourself in trouble. For example, if you’re given responsibility to work on a project that requires close attention to detail, you may be likely to overlook important details because you have difficulty staying focused. Consequently, you might feel more comfortable delegating such tasks to other people who are more detail oriented. Being able to recognize such characteristics in yourself and having more detail-oriented people do such tasks could be an effective way to manage your own stress level.

Low self-control may diminish your effectiveness at work. Acting too relaxed can make it difficult for you to focus on projects that require organized sequences of steps or stages. Thus, your ability to accomplish may be inconsistent. Indeed, it’s possible that you might be criticized periodically for being unreliable or unable to “stay within the lines.” Nonetheless, you may still experience many short-lived pleasures and never be thought of as boring.

Openness

As someone moderate in openness, you have an appreciation for art and nature, but are also down to earth and realistic. On the one hand, it’s likely that you are fond of music and art, and on the other hand, enjoy and appreciate things that have a clear point and some sort of practical utility. Additionally, you have a certain degree of awareness of your own emotions; that is, you tend to notice when you’re feeling a particular way and take those feelings into account when making decisions.
You tend to think in both abstract ways—in terms of metaphors—and logically. Therefore, in your work and free time, you enjoy activities that get your “creative juices” flowing, but are also able to keep your mind on the primary objective of the task at hand.

Your tendency to be both open-minded, yet realistic is generally quite advantageous. For instance, when there are no clear rules about how to approach a particular problem, your openness makes it easy for you to identify new ways to solve problems that might not be very obvious to people that are not as open as you are. However, because you are also realistic-minded, you are able follow-rules quite easily. This combination makes it easy for you to excel in your work because you are able to “think outside the box” while still being able to keep your eyes on “the big picture.”

Easygoingness

Easygoingness refers to one's ability to relax. Based on your score, you appear to “take things as they come” and enjoy having a good time. However, being high in easygoingness also has the potential to produce stress in a number of ways. For example, you may find it difficult to complete tasks thoroughly and efficiently. In this way, being high in easygoingness cannot only make your life difficult, but also the lives of the people around you. Another potential problem with being too high in easygoingness is that it can provide you with gratification in the short-term, but in the long-term provide undesirable consequences.

High easygoingness, even when not seriously destructive, may also diminish your effectiveness at work, for example. You may find it aversive and difficult to put in all the effort that may sometimes be needed to effectively accomplish certain tasks. For this reason, your colleagues might view you as forgetful and unfocused.

How does your personality affect your love life?


With your strong degree of self-confidence, it’s no surprise that you get along well with most people. Indeed, it’s self-confidence that allows people to feel comfortable interacting with others without feeling insecure and vulnerable. For this reason, you shouldn’t have much difficulty in romance, at least not initially. Your social skills will likely help relieve any anxiety your romantic partners might have on those first few dates. However, over time, the high standards that you have for yourself could potentially frustrate your partner.

Given how much you value family life, you probably get along best with people who share your values and beliefs. In fact, it’s likely that you maintain close connections with members of your immediate and distant family. For this reason, you would probably be most satisfied in a romantic relationship with someone who also values domestic life. Being in a relationship with someone who enjoys going out to parties and staying-up late at night might be fun, at least initially; yet it’s likely that you will find this tiring over time. Thus, it might be easier and more satisfying for you to develop a long-lasting relationship with a person who also enjoys spending time at home and desires starting a family. On first dates, perhaps you might suggest to your partner that the two of you spend a quiet night having dinner at one of your respective homes instead of going out to a restaurant or club.

As someone who is more relaxed than most people, you’re probably attracted to most people. However, your free-spirited nature might make being in a relationship with a person that is more rigid than you difficult because you might perceive the person as being too uptight and controlling. For this reason, you may ultimately be most satisfied in a relationship with someone that is shares your level of self-control.

Your openness probably makes it easy for you to respect and appreciate people that are different from you. However, you may become frustrated with people that are too unconventional or traditional. Therefore, you may be happiest in serious relationships with people that share both your open-mindedness and realistic nature.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

1125-time so fast

so fast fast fast!
nearly the end of 2008 now.

winter is winter!

discuss the cartoon story with pietro. ^_^

Sunday, November 23, 2008

1123-next step

i believe there have fate.
it is fate call me.to help me make my decision.
and follow.

i knew what is my next step now.
open to see the world...

the "Magic Journey" just begin.
i can feel,my heart,,, my passion,,,

there always have possibilities.
just keep going,thinking through.be your best.make things easy.
and make this world more better than ever!


good girl.sleep then!
tomorrow will be a new day!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

1122-keep thinking

i'm good in 10 days positive test.
look back all the nagetive things in the past 10 days.

bad in time management,late for class.late for appointment,,,
sad for heart broken,
health concern and the other unexpected things.

i change them to be a positive way.

they said,problem is a chance.
a chance let us realize we have to keep find solution.
to remind us we are not good enough yet.
push us to be more better then ever.

now i realize i should more concern my time in control.
my health also.

watched learning point dvd.
find my point on crus to mitigate my stomach problems.

well.
hate the failure feelings about relationship.
he's a baby.
i'm too weak to protect him.
i have to let him go. which cause another heart broken.

i have to accumulate my patience again.

good things,the pain from brain lenitively disappear.
thank god!


i was keep thinking a lot of things of life.and people.
why and how.
i feel happy that i listen to my heart most of the time.
to do as far as i know,the right choice which i should make.

and i realize that people can be strong in spirit ,only when they trying to.
in meditation,i find peace,
i find way to kick fear out of my mind.
i'm not perfert,but god make each of us unique,that must have been some reason.
i'm happy who i am.


i was thinking about fake marriage the other day,
from someone's proposal.

yes i knew,
i no need make things so hard,
if i want,
if i like,
i can use much easier quick way to get what i want,anyway.

i can marry a rich man,so i no need work,
i can marry a american to get green card in short time,
i can go to travel,or anything else.

but, so what?

i can be very famous,in easy way,

so what?


i made my choice and i say no.
i should proud of myself being indepedent and struggling with my life.
i'm damn good!


have to make more schedule now.
i will keep try the positive test until death.
i will keep fight with the deepest fear,
and i knew,i will kick them good in ass!


keep rocking! i'm great!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

1120-fight on 9th

The weather change cold now.
just realize winter is coming.
i'm fine on 9th.
i feel i'm great. :)

even cried with fighting for depression,suspicion,lonely and fear.
still looking for the answer ,of why we supposed to live on earth.
fragrance of flower,music,read,learning help a lot.
start 10 days of meditation test.

i am a good girl!
also brave! ^_^

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

1118-happy on 7th

i'm good!
they say "small keys to big doors"

i'm good! ^_^
have to sleep eariler anyway!
good night to myself!

Monday, November 17, 2008

1117-Chance or Not?



meet friends and lunch together.

6th day are perfect!
i'm happy who i am. and made my own choice.

i knew,
there is tons of chance & seduction in the world.
i'm happy i'm listening to my heart, and not get lost.


good i am!
i'm proud of that!

maintain my soul in meditation.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

1116-Asoka





watched "Asoka",and cried a lot.

Love is gonna save us



i will be fine.
good in 5th day!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

1115-4th day

free weekend finally in 1 month.
feel great.

spend a little bit more time with eli. big clean day.
go to supermarket.
next time,just buy what we have.
people strange,they hating change.
well.that's who we are.

the 4th day is successful in positive.
meet fred ma and talk about the travel plan.
maybe egypt,is next destination.
who knows.

email matt.called siam.he's so happy.
sometimes i just wondered,
how can people easily make others so happy or sometimes even cry?
what happened?
it's up to you.
inder finally say bye.
maybe that is a good thing. :)



more rubbish in the universe.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

1113-Lost tickets

don't know it is good ,or bad.
after finish dinner with firoa and fred ma,
airasia already run out guangzhou/shenzhen tickets.
supposed book tickets already,just rushed out for dinner not finish credit pay yet.
k

life is a gamble.
you never know what is next,
just keep go on,accpet wonders,and be happy. *-^

i'm happy my positive test in second day.
i'm a good girl.i love my life.
and i do encourage the people around me.
i am damn good and naughty.lol! *-^

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

1112-maintain your power

If, all the difficulties suddenly appear in front of you,
would you give up ,ignore them, or back off?


To me?
---------------------No---------------------Way!!!

Right!

Every problem is a chance.
Always Be Positive! find solution,and running on your way!



today can't find right computer to cut my videos.
most of machine locked usb.student computer running terrible in premiere.
but they not allowed to use teacher's machine anymore.
well.
where we supposed to cut videos?
when we are exactly in a movie cut course?
how can we practise?

doesn't matter now.
people stupid sometime.
just have to find another solution.

wanna create more than anything!
i can feel my passion ,the power of enthusiasm for create,
is accumulate running faster than ever!
nothing,nobody, can stop me now!
get out of my way!

1111-had enough



he looks great! done a amazing job in marathon!
i shouldn't let him down.

had enough today.
for some stupid reason.and i treat people badly.
it become a bad circle.i just realized,that people actually can effect another person.

you wanna positive,you have to close keep in touch with positive person.
bad rude stupid people just can easily drive you mad.
calm down!
think probably! take a deep breath! you can work out!

buy flower today.
happy have the perfect smell in the room.

Monday, November 10, 2008

1110-An Inconvenience Truth





think about our children.
think about our earth.
think about inside from the people's heart.
i knew, what i'm trying to work out,
is right.

one day.
i'll let the world hear my voice.

1109-Walking Around The Earth

watched all the video from fred ma.
thinking about his plan about walking around the earth.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

1108-sunny day in hot spring

have a wonderful trip to hot spring resort today!
we have a lot of fun and good time!



the mark to resort



nice view!



hey hey!



ha!

we are really enjoy!
perfect Sunny day! *-^

Friday, November 7, 2008

1107-Music list

RULES:
1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Dido-I'm no angel

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Dido-Thank you

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Britney Spears-Piece of me

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Leona Lewis - Better In Time

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
ROXETTE - IT MUST HAVE BEEN LOVE

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Age Of Echoes-The Final Tide

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
M2M-Love left for me

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Nirvana - Oh Me

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Michael Bublé - Home

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Bandari- EI CONDOR PASA

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
Timo toikki - Are You The One

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Blue-Walk away

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Aon Kevlin- Ruk Ter Mai Mee Wun Yhood

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Dido - White Flag

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Rosas - La Oreja De Van Gogh

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
PM Dawn-Set adrift on a memory bliss

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Eagles - Love will keep us alive

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Chihiro Onitsuka - Beautiful Fighter

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Jordy-ma petit soeur

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Sum 41- Pieces

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Nickelback-If Everyone Cared

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Shania Twain - I'm Gonna Getcha Good

they say,music touch our soul.
it's true. :)

Youtube Rocks!

1107-40 spontaneous questions

40 of the MOST spontaneous questions ever, BE HONEST

1. Where were you 2 hours ago?
eat dinner,have a nice shower.

2. What do you think of your last kiss?
poor my boy

3. Do you kiss a lot of people?
yes,online. :p

4. Are you wearing socks right now?
No

5. When was the last time you went out of state?
Sep.2008

6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
No

7. What was the last thing you had to drink?
yoghourt.

8. What are you wearing right now?
Brown T-Shirt

9. What was your last purchase?
ice cream

10. Last food you ate?
cauliflower chicken rice.

11. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
friend from kl

12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
No.

13. Do you have a pet?
no
have hamster,fish,tortoise before.

14. What did you do last night?
feel bad,stay home

15. Are you a vampire?
no way

16. If you could be anywhere you want where would it be?
California, Gold Coast, Tibet

17. What is the last thing you purchased online?
dating service

18. One thing you hate about yourself?
lazy

19. What's your favorite soup?
Corn soup

20. Do you miss anyone?
yes

21. Last movie you saw?
Lightspeed

22. What are your plans for the day?
go home,pick up swim cloth for tomorrow

23. Did you have fun today?
nothing

24. Who is your last text message from?
someone who likes me.

25. Were you an honor roll student in school?
just normal

26. What do you know about the future?
Yesterday is history,
Tomorrow is a mystery
Today is a gift: that’s why we call it ‘The Present’.

27. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
blind date.

29. Do you have a tan?
not much

30. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
38

31. Did you meet anyone new today?
no

32. Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
ear hole

33. How do you like your soda?
no interested

34. Do you like hot sauce?
not really

35. What are you doing tomorrow?
go to hot spring resort with cs friends

36. What day is tomorrow?
Saturday,Nov.8,2008

37. What is your current mood?
peaceful quite

38. Do you like someone?
yes.

39. Do you have hands?
use now.:p

40. Why?
make dream come true. ^_^


Good night!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

1106-weakness for fear

the pain from the back brain keep remain 1 week now.
as the aggravating pain by day,was scared.
everythings fine and i'm doing a great job,cut videos,
have watch movie with eli sit on the comfortable couch.
wrong movie,opps.

everythings fine and have to be grateful.
but just start negative weakness for no reason.
cried for lonely.

had enough.

thought we are just human being.
things happen for a reason.
i try to figure it out. but no answer.
have to take more time to discovery.

where is my love?
why i can not find someone can be accomany with?
what is F***ing wrong?
for near 1111.no big deal. i'm preparing.
i knew,i will be ok.

1105-Italian Dinner

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Monday, November 3, 2008

1104-new day

a new day start!!! *-^
i'm happy in my life!
i'll try every strength to my target!

i love this world!

1103-excellent good!

i'm damn good! *-^

take a 10 days challenge for positive.
now is 3rd.

damn good damn good! hold on! keeping like this!

^_^

Sunday, November 2, 2008