1122-keep thinking

i'm good in 10 days positive test.
look back all the nagetive things in the past 10 days.

bad in time management,late for class.late for appointment,,,
sad for heart broken,
health concern and the other unexpected things.

i change them to be a positive way.

they said,problem is a chance.
a chance let us realize we have to keep find solution.
to remind us we are not good enough yet.
push us to be more better then ever.

now i realize i should more concern my time in control.
my health also.

watched learning point dvd.
find my point on crus to mitigate my stomach problems.

well.
hate the failure feelings about relationship.
he's a baby.
i'm too weak to protect him.
i have to let him go. which cause another heart broken.

i have to accumulate my patience again.

good things,the pain from brain lenitively disappear.
thank god!


i was keep thinking a lot of things of life.and people.
why and how.
i feel happy that i listen to my heart most of the time.
to do as far as i know,the right choice which i should make.

and i realize that people can be strong in spirit ,only when they trying to.
in meditation,i find peace,
i find way to kick fear out of my mind.
i'm not perfert,but god make each of us unique,that must have been some reason.
i'm happy who i am.


i was thinking about fake marriage the other day,
from someone's proposal.

yes i knew,
i no need make things so hard,
if i want,
if i like,
i can use much easier quick way to get what i want,anyway.

i can marry a rich man,so i no need work,
i can marry a american to get green card in short time,
i can go to travel,or anything else.

but, so what?

i can be very famous,in easy way,

so what?


i made my choice and i say no.
i should proud of myself being indepedent and struggling with my life.
i'm damn good!


have to make more schedule now.
i will keep try the positive test until death.
i will keep fight with the deepest fear,
and i knew,i will kick them good in ass!


keep rocking! i'm great!